Money. Debt. Growing Up.

I received my disclosure statements on my next round of student loans. -sigh-

It can get really scary and sort of depressing knowing that I'm going into debt for theatre and music.

But then I think about my passion for it. My passion for all of it.

I don't want to just try to make it as an actor in New York City. I want to travel, working with and performing for children and from there, who knows!

I also realize that I may very well become a teacher at a school. The saying "Those who can't do, teach" will sometimes come to mind. But when I think about inspiring children, especially through something as personal as theatre, I get so excited. I've already got plans in my head for how I want to teach Theatre I on a high school level...what I would choose to focus on. Maybe I'm meant to teach to begin with but I also feel I need real world experiences to pass on to my students.

I will go into more debt for choosing to study abroad next summer in Scotland. I feel that is a trip that is once in a lifetime for me and I am going to wholeheartedly take it. Yes. It's more debt added on to what I have now but to see a new country and have the whole thing focus on my passion? That's priceless to me.

Maybe I'll find a new home in Europe and teach there. Sometimes, I feel like anything is possible. I need to stop worrying as much. I know I need to work and pay bills and all that but I also need to enjoy life a little bit more. Debt is going to happen. It's okay because I'm doing what I need to make my life that much more successful in the future.